Gentleman Geek wrote:The subject line of this thread has been staring accusitorily at me for the nearly two weeks that it has been here now, and I have still not responded to it. I've been... avoiding it all this time. Of all the things I'm realizing the past few weeks that I've been missing out on, this is the one desire that is new to me. And therefore strange and scary, yet exciting in a way.
Until recently, I did not have a strong desire to be touched, it simply did not fit my emotionally detached and distant nature (or is it a facade?). But now whenever I'm feeling a depressed mood again, with a free complimentary crying fit (twice daily now), I just want someone to hold and hug and comfort me.
The problem for me is not that I would shy away at the last moment, I don't believe I would, but rather that I have no one to be this intimate with. Of course, there's my mother who would probably put an arm around my shoulder or give me a hug when I ask her to, but somehow that seems awkward to me at this age. I just want someone who loves me for being me, without the parental bond, to give me that physical affection that I crave.
sobriainebrietas wrote:maybe you are getting ready to be ready for a girlfriend?