Demon wrote: My interest is in murder, not serial killers and I certainly do not idolize psychopaths. I already suspect I'm a secondary psychopath. I have nothing to gain from idolizing others.
Sure. :P
Demon wrote: My interest is in murder, not serial killers and I certainly do not idolize psychopaths. I already suspect I'm a secondary psychopath. I have nothing to gain from idolizing others.
ajr8 wrote:They must have been assuming your homicidal urges were emotional in nature, are they? Mindfulness is a therapy technique used for emotional problems I believe, I could be wrong though.
Demon wrote:No. It has nothing to do with affection. It has more to do with just relieving all that negative energy (ie; aggression). The homicidal urges themselves are related to power/control issues.
Surely it doesn't sound that dramatic.
If you mean it's not relieving the aggression, it does relieve it to a degree, but not entirely. The urges always return eventually.
I've seen psychologists in the past to try and figure out how better to deal with the urges, but all they could really do is offer this mindfulness and meditation crap, which I just can't get into.
ajr8 wrote:I think mine used to be sadistic in nature, now they've come back but are now paranoid in nature.
ajr8 wrote:When I did that as a kid it was at random times too, I guess when I had the opportunity to, and I remember it was mostly out of morbid curiosity, maybe there was a sadistic element involved, but I mostly wanted to kill the animal for some unknown reason, I hardly ever remember feeling angry while doing it, it's hard for me even now to give an explanation why I would do things like that. The most I can come up with is I was curious what killing something would be like.
Demon wrote:I'm a control freak, so control has always been part of it. Plus, I've always had an interest in watching things die. There's just something about it that fascinates me. I killed some animals out of anger though due to low frustration tolerance. There were others I killed where I didn't feel any emotion at all. I just did it because I wanted to.
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