Tempo wrote:justonemoreperson wrote:I'm assuming that as none of us are currently incarcerated then most of us comply with that.
Or that some of us are good at getting away with it.
For me it's both, I currently am not violent, haven't committed a violent crime in over three years now, but I did do a lot of violent things in the past and got away with almost everything. I had a dysfunctional upbringing, my childhood was chaotic and very traumatic in a lot of ways, and there is a very long history of mental illness, drug addiction, and violence in my family. I inherited a temperament that was very spontaneous and had a hair trigger temper that was well suited to violence and my childhood environment nurtured it and I used to act on the aggressive and violent urges a lot, I usually got away with it.
Then I had a pretty bad experience in being caught for a violent crime about a month and a half before I turned 20 years old and it resulted in me being locked up in a psychiatric hospital and I had a miserable experience there and it was a form of incarceration that I never intend to go through again.
I have since found other outlets for my impulses, not all of them are healthy but it keeps me violence free and I feel a lot more organized this way, also since 2009 I've become much more self educated and self aware so I understand myself enough to avoid actual violent acts and I can still be free and do my thing and enjoy myself without physically harming others, and I also realized from looking back at every violent thing I've ever done that it never actually benefited me psychologically, I felt no emotional reaction while doing it and it never satisfied the violent urges in my head, I'm guessing even escalating to lethal violence wouldn't have given me any satisfaction either so I concluded on my own there is no point for me personally to continue to be violent. The actual real life experience doesn't actually relieve the urges at all, just makes it a recurrent cycle that never gives you the rush you'd expect, so it made sense to just quit altogether and try other things, and I'm pleased with my decision.