Jeslyn wrote:[
LBL: I have 2 theories about Russell Williams. All I remember is that when he was a teenager, he did tell someone that he liked wearing ladies lingerie. So?? It was the 80's, rumour spread he was gay, he was not gay, he had a girlfriend yet told a classmate, a female that rarely spoke to him, that he wore ladies lingerie. Isn't blurting out a personal comment inappropriate to someone you barely know and socially awkward? Some thought he was trying to be funny. He was a 'nerd'. When he transferred to Upper Canada College ( a high school) his class mates locked him in his closet or room and he got out by tying bedsheets together. He laughed it off like a good sport but then became a prankster and started to hide in closets, jump out and scare classmates. He was bullied, but he was a good sport about it.
every kid who isn't in the most popular 5%-10% for his entire scholastic life will be confronted by some attempts at bullying. that's a normal experience that the vast majority of people you pass on the street have had to deal with somehow. further, being a good sport is a strong sign that he was not broken up about it. it may not have bothered him much at all.
As for his career, he hadn't reached his peak, yet, he still hadn't made it to general and there was talk that it would be his next promotion. As for lack of sleep, I have sleep apnea and went for a sleep study, it took me 4 hours to fall asleep and after finally falling asleep, I had several apnea episodes during the night, hence my doc gave me sleeping pills and a CPAP. Lack of sleep and trying to function on little sleep was and is causing erratic behavior and irrational thoughts. One theory is that this lack of sleep and memories of the past or something triggered his spree. Starting with teenage pranks of panty raids, then sexual assault without penetration and then eventually rape and murder. All while taking pics of himself dressed in the lingerie and filming the rapes and murders. That's some midlife crisis, there has to be more to it.
i read a book about him and he did not seem sleep deprived. i think that's all of the sleep he needs. 1%-2% of people do not need more than 5-6 hours per night. anyone can sleep that much per night, but most people will not function well and as the nights of of 5-6 hours accumulate, mental functioning continues to deteriorate. i have an aunt who's 5 -5.5 hours per night for her entire life and she feels good and is healthy. col. williams is probably similar.
why does there have to be more to it? he had remarkable self-control and will-power. it's not surprising that he was able to keep his desires in check until he decided to let go for some reason that only he knows. most people can't delay gratification for 25 years but he was not an average guy.
Another theory is that due to his relocation, he spent much time alone at his cottage to be near his work, alone. His wife spent much time at their Ottawa house, alone and near her workplace, they were miles apart much of time. His position as commander required him to relocate every year or couple of years, he was scheduled to transfer from Trenton to Korea I believe, the same place where his parents moved to before he left Birchmount and went to the boarding school when he was a teenager. I doubt his wife would have gone with him. He seemed to like being alone, but I think he was lonely. He wanted someone to pay attention to his needs, but was it just attention that he needed? Or was it something else that he needed?
well, yes, i agree that being separated from his wife contributed but not how you think. her absence allowed him to bring the second one home, then when it was time for work, he killed her and left the body exposed in the garage. he went out prowling before the first kill often while he was with his wife. he'd say he was going for a jog in the middle of the night and she thought nothing of it.
“It is not to be thought that the life of darkness is sunk in misery and lost as if in sorrowing. There is no sorrowing. For sorrow is a thing that is swallowed up in death, and death and dying are the very life of the darkness.”
― Jacob Boehme