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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby Tempest88 » Mon Mar 05, 2012 9:07 am

MHM wrote:I was teasing.


You suck at teasing. Now, I will show the picture of you... I snapped from our webcam conversation to everyone... I'm sure you don't want them knowing what you really look like.

AlphaMikeFoxtrot wrote:You're a sweet one. Send a PM sometime.


I have a PM tab, if you want to PM me, you're smart enough to figure it out :wink: I won't kiss your ass like your BPD friend does :lol:
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby Little Boy Lost » Mon Mar 05, 2012 9:17 am

Tempest80 wrote:
You suck at teasing. Now, I will show the picture of you... I snapped from our webcam conversation to everyone... I'm sure you don't want them knowing what you really look like.


Not a pretty sight, eh? Not everyone can be genetically blessed.

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Tempest80 wrote:
Did you notice? Is it obvious to people who aren't me?


No. Unless you post about your psychosis, no one would guess.
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby Tempest88 » Mon Mar 05, 2012 9:24 am

Little Boy Lost wrote:No. Unless you post about your psychosis, no one would guess.


I really am a master of mask wearing. Though, I'm glad I can tell, when I re read my posts at a later date.

Little Boy Lost wrote:Not a pretty sight, eh? Not everyone can be genetically blessed.


This is true. I saw some real eye sores when I was at the store tonight, they should be euthanized.
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby AlphaMikeFoxtrot » Mon Mar 05, 2012 10:26 am

Tempest80 wrote:
AlphaMikeFoxtrot wrote:You're a sweet one. Send a PM sometime.


I have a PM tab, if you want to PM me, you're smart enough to figure it out :wink: I won't kiss your ass like your BPD friend does :lol:

Here I was trying to be polite, considerate and all that. I'm certainly not one to add to the troubles of the already troubled by forcing myself on them when they may not be interested, lol. Manners are just not the cool thing online anymore, are they? :lol:
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby Psyquest » Mon Mar 05, 2012 4:02 pm

Tempest, yask for other meds or find a different psych who can hel. Really, don't let this paranoia consume you.

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In that movie A Beautiful Mind, Russell Crowe figures out that he is imagining things because one person he keeps seeing never ages. He then learns to live with himself the way he is and is able to recognize when things are/aren't real. It is a cool concept. Not sure if it would work in real life but who knows?
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby gas lamp » Mon Mar 05, 2012 4:22 pm

Psyquest wrote:Tempest, yask for other meds or find a different psych who can hel. Really, don't let this paranoia consume you.



In that movie A Beautiful Mind, Russell Crowe figures out that he is imagining things because one person he keeps seeing never ages. He then learns to live with himself the way he is and is able to recognize when things are/aren't real. It is a cool concept. Not sure if it would work in real life but who knows?


i'm afraid this is only possible if the psychosis is very slow, early and gradual in onset. discerning reality is hard for people who are used to living with nothing else for so many years and trust their life/freedom with it.these coping mechanisms require a lot of constant complex effort.
but don't give up!
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby Tempest88 » Mon Mar 05, 2012 4:35 pm

Psyquest wrote:Tempest, yask for other meds or find a different psych who can hel. Really, don't let this paranoia consume you.


I have seen more Psychiatrists and other MH professionals in my life than I can to count, none are willing or wanting to work with a person who has AsPD. Medication is about all they will offer.

Psyquest wrote:In that movie A Beautiful Mind, Russell Crowe figures out that he is imagining things because one person he keeps seeing never ages. He then learns to live with himself the way he is and is able to recognize when things are/aren't real. It is a cool concept. Not sure if it would work in real life but who knows?


Truthfully, I've had very minor Psychosis for years (3 or so years), very mild... and I have up until recently... always been about to distinguish when/what is real and is not. The mind in that state, is very powerful at convincing you that unreal things, are real... it's impossible for me to then distinguish between them, unfortunately. Of course, I act accordingly to what I perceive to be real... and it seems my logical mind is on vacation during these episodes, which makes trying to figure out reality... even more difficult.

It's something that's hard to explain to someone who has never experienced any form of Psychosis.
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby History Mirror » Mon Mar 05, 2012 6:18 pm

That is a very true statement. The moment you are labeled AsPD.. or any variation thereof, the psychiatric community gives up on anything but medication. If you agree, they do their best to pacify you. In some cases it works, in some it does not.

I personally think giving someone with AsPD a large amount of the strongest benzo available in the country is... odd, but hey. I'm not complaining.

Figuring out what is real and what is not is quite easy. The only time it becomes an issue is when everything becomes fake.
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby Tempest88 » Mon Mar 05, 2012 6:43 pm

AlphaMikeFoxtrot wrote:Here I was trying to be polite, considerate and all that. I'm certainly not one to add to the troubles of the already troubled by forcing myself on them when they may not be interested, lol. Manners are just not the cool thing online anymore, are they?


They are passe my friend :wink:

History Mirror wrote:Figuring out what is real and what is not is quite easy. The only time it becomes an issue is when everything becomes fake.


True, but everything appears fake to me. I'm outside of myself... watching. Nothing is real... yet... it's real.

History Mirror wrote: The moment you are labeled AsPD.. or any variation thereof, the psychiatric community gives up on anything but medication. If you agree, they do their best to pacify you. In some cases it works, in some it does not.


I was given a different Anti-Psychotic today.

History Mirror wrote:I personally think giving someone with AsPD a large amount of the strongest benzo available in the country is... odd, but hey. I'm not complaining.


What are the benzos for again? What do they do?
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Re: What Have You Always Wanted?

Postby History Mirror » Mon Mar 05, 2012 6:46 pm

Basically a chill pill. they cock-tail best of anything with a numble of other drugs. They amplify Booze; weed; opiates.. and probably more (those r just the 3 i usually combo). Or you can just use them on their own for fun in large amounts

I think they're an anti anxiety med/sleep pill a lot of the time. I get mine as they reduce violent tendancies/urges. or so they claim.
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