by Aeva117 » Wed Mar 22, 2017 5:38 pm
I'm not really sure what being an insider would consist of, so I have no idea. I think I've always been fairly neutral. I wasn't one of the "cool kids" in school, but I wasn't an outcast either. My group of friends has always consisted of people who were either just as disordered as me, or more so. We all had different issues, but were accepting of each other. Most of us blended in well enough that we got away with a lot.
As an adult, I don't fit in with what most would consider "normal", but I have no problem with that. My traits allow me to be good at my job, which is the most important aspect of my life. They don't really allow me to have relationships besides the few that I've maintained from my school years, but that too is fine by me. It does suck having to be masked so much of the time, but it's easier than dealing with the repercussions.
When it comes to other people, I'm definitely mostly schizoid.
I far more conscious of being different when it comes to my physical issues. Being in my 20s and using a walker or cane makes you stand out.
Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD) all grown up