i was referring to your perception of your abilities. your abilities are not that great
Oh. Well, that's okay. I actually worry about this. It's important not to overvalue, I think.
Took a knock in confidence in my intellectual capabilities when I flunked out of school the first time. This time I've tried using school as a more 'objective' metric for it. Maths contests, etc. Qualified for trinity camp this year for the second time in a row and tutored another boy because I'd done it before so I don't think it's an overvaluation.
Honestly speaking, is it really a stretch to say I am above average?
you still think your mere existence is of sufficient value to others that you don't need to do anything more,
What? Why does what other people find valuable about me have to do about anything? That's not even a metric of consideration.
can't you see that their admiration is the admiration of peasants and that you are actually worthless?
What admiration? Why do I need to be admired?