Sex Offenses

BPM606060 wrote:hmmm, interesting, never had a person admitting to sex crimes on this forum from my recollection.

platonic?

AsPD + Raging Hormones seems to be pretty lethal combo. I had sexual abuse thoughts when I was a teenager, as I grew older and estrogen took over, they lessened. Perhaps as you grow older and your hormones levels lower, you'll have the same relief. Sounds like you're doing your best to keep the monster in its cage. Perhaps listening to the annoying rattle of the cage bars, is better than letting it out to play and trying to recontain it.

HereNow wrote:AsPD + Raging Hormones seems to be pretty lethal combo. I had sexual abuse thoughts when I was a teenager, as I grew older and estrogen took over, they lessened. Perhaps as you grow older and your hormones levels lower, you'll have the same relief. Sounds like you're doing your best to keep the monster in its cage. Perhaps listening to the annoying rattle of the cage bars, is better than letting it out to play and trying to recontain it.

The thing is I like aggressive sex. I get escorts, and pick up girls at the bar. Escorts; I pay to let me bind/rape them (these girls are actually tolerable people). Bar girls I just ###$. I kind of like the fact that they don't know, they are ######6 a "predator". Some people say, porn, prostitutes, fantasy, bdsm, etc. can facilitate attacks, but for me it has been the complete opposite. Instead of doing what I used to do. Ill watch porn, as I life weights. I become aroused, while at the same time, get physically stimulated. The combination of both, gets me going really hard. Then, once I'm done and I have that physical release, I masturbate, and thus, get the sexual release.

I did my series of offenses as:
I wanted to get some physical release.
I wanted to hurt someone.
I figured I may as well have sex as I do it.
I wanted revenge on society in general.

If you've ever studied Rapist typologies, I am considered, by Groth's definition. "Anger-Retalitory". I did what I did to extract revenge on life in general. Apparently, this type is the most treatable, or at least able to repress urges, as the urges are more based on displaced aggression. At least it was for me. Now I'm learning, I don't hate women, I hate people. With that being said, while this monster has been caged, a less discriminatory monster has been born…..

Ill watch porn, as I life weights. I become aroused, while at the same time, get physically stimulated. The combination of both, gets me going really hard. Then, once I'm done and I have that physical release, I masturbate, and thus, get the sexual release. A cure for Rape

Agreed. All the same, you don't hear a lot about 40yr old men out raping adult women. The urges will likely lessen somewhat, as you grow older. Perhaps something will replace it?

HereNow wrote:Agreed. All the same, you don't hear a lot about 40yr old men out raping adult women. The urges will likely lessen somewhat, as you grow older. Perhaps something will replace it?

This happens with a lot of impulses. Homicidal urges tend to die off when you hit 45/50.

It doesn't matter, I've already been convicted, and I talk about it all the time during classes. Theres no reason not to, if your trying to figure that $#%^ out.

Indeed, you can never understand something you repress and avoid. I have never committed a serious violent sex offense. Although I have done a moderate amount of sexually harassing behavior as well a handful of other sexual crimes( none were violent). But i have had far more thoughts and urges to do more violent things, but i am fairly well at controlling the urges.

What happens in your classes if a guy joins and won't talk? Just sits there.
Doesn't look like he wants to participate? Is he allowed to just sit and not talk his story?

Eight wrote:What happens in your classes if a guy joins and won't talk? Just sits there.
Doesn't look like he wants to participate? Is he allowed to just sit and not talk his story?

Its all individual. They have group therapies for SO's who do drugs etc. but they focus on drugs.

I just sat there and stared, and hummed songs for about a month. So, nothing happens. Just a very boring few hours. Id assume, MOST don't talk about it, because most really don't want to change. They are usually a bit older, and don't really care about life anymore. So yes, you could just sit there. But if I don't show up, Ill violate parole and go back.

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Eight wrote:What happens in your classes if a guy joins and won't talk? Just sits there.
Doesn't look like he wants to participate? Is he allowed to just sit and not talk his story?

Its all individual. They have group therapies for SO's who do drugs etc. but they focus on drugs.

I just sat there and stared, and hummed songs for about a month. So, nothing happens. Just a very boring few hours. Id assume, MOST don't talk about it, because most really don't want to change. They are usually a bit older, and don't really care about life anymore. So yes, you could just sit there. But if I don't show up, Ill violate parole and go back.

Nomad Psych wrote:

HereNow wrote:Agreed. All the same, you don't hear a lot about 40yr old men out raping adult women. The urges will likely lessen somewhat, as you grow older. Perhaps something will replace it?

This happens with a lot of impulses. Homicidal urges tend to die off when you hit 45/50.

Im not homicidal. Im sure I would have eventually killed someone as roughly for every 20 rapes an individual commits, 2 die. It start when I was 16 and did it to someone I knew, and really liked it, and felt good, as I did not like this girl on a personal level. She didn't say anything to anyone (police etc.), so I felt great. Since that felt so good, I tried it on a stranger and really focused more on beating the women up, and releasing rage, rather than seeking sexual stimulation; this happened on the street. This was not very enjoyable, so I started upping it a bit, and actually started to break into women's houses. I picked them, because super early in the morning, when I rode the school bus to school, I would see them walk to their cars out of their house, presumably to go to work.

All in all, the level of violence I displayed increased, while the sexual pleasure from it decreased. This is typical and is mostly why I am so willing to talk about it etc. I would rather release anger and enjoy it
than not enjoy it and sit in a cell. Plus only 1 person, pressed charges. I confessed and gave a list of names to the prosecution, but none of the women wanted to testify (which is typical). If they had, I would have served 25+ years. 7 years for each assault. That was a wake up call.

I've never really understood the lure sexual assault. If the brutality wasn't what got you off then why did you rape people rather than seduce them? Getting her to the point where she'll let you do whatever you like is far more exciting for me. Then again, I've always been about head games and psychological control. Was the rape your way of getting physical control? If so, why do you need it?