InSpiritus wrote:And the killing of God's creatures would put you on my *better off dead * list.
For food and for the safety of my pets. "Pointless killing" isn't in my nature, except when it comes to insects, in which case I am in fact Bug Hitler.
InSpiritus wrote:You are repressing something, what is on your mind?
Three things.
1. I've long had a sense of love and compassion rooted in me for my fellow human being, and because my mother was so masculine, "normal" women came off as perfect beings to be put upon a pedestal. I had no female influence while growing up, so relationships have always been foreign.
2. I hate American society. I find the idea of growing up and going into the real world horrifying. I'd much rather be a revolutionary figure that breaks the chains that hold back the common people from achieving success. I don't hate our people, but frankly there are a lot of dumbasses in this country for it to come to what it has. The system is broken.
3. I've put up with being miserable for all of my life. I went from loner, to popular, to loner again, to popular again, then back to loner. I can't maintain it. If I wasn't born a psychopath, I might become one out of sheer abuse. I don't know how much longer I can take it. That's my deepest fear.
It's sort of like when you're driving down the road and you see a dead deer that got hit by a semi rotting on the side; reeking of decay and laced with maggots. But then it gets up and walks off. That's what I'm repressing; I am that deer now.