Hi everyone,
I am new here and I was just wondering if I could get your opinions on whether you think this might be anorexia or not. Thanks in advance
I never really considered anorexia a possibility for me, but I am starting to think I might have a mild case. People are always telling me how skinny I look and I have been made fun of by my friends about how skinny I am; my dad once said he wondered if I had anorexia. I just thought they were all joking around with me though. My dad says I don't eat very much, but I always thought I ate a lot more than I should. He compares me to when he was my age, but I just thought he was crazy from the amount he said he eats.
I don't think I avoid eating on purpose just to lose weight. I might miss a meal and just think of the possible weight loss as a bonus, but I usually miss meals for other reasons. I don't ever eat breakfast because I just can't be bothered. I eat lunch sometimes, but it's really off and on for me. I eat fast food a lot for lunch when I do eat lunch and I usually end up feeling sick and I hate myself for always eating it. Fast food is really unhealthy though so it makes sense for me to feel bad about eating it, right?
I snack a lot between meals on stuff like crackers or chips or pickles (I love pickles ). I usually feel bad after eating chips or buttery popcorn, but that's just because they are unhealthy. I have a really hard time keeping myself from snacking though, even if I am feeling sick from it. Sometimes I go for a full day or two without a real meal, but it's not that often and I don't do it to lose weight, I just do it because I don't feel like eating.
I am self-conscious about my weight, I get really upset if I see my weight go up and I hate it when I weigh more than someone else (even if they are a lot shorter than I am). I don't weigh myself that often because I am too scared that I have gained weight. I am not obsessive about losing weight, but I would like to lose weight. I feel fat when I look in the mirror (mostly in my torso and thighs), and I hate the way my body looks; I just attributed that to my gender identity disorder and hating to see anything that isn't completely feminine in my body.
I just always thought that anorexia was something that would be really obvious to see if I had it. I also thought that if I had it then my family and friends would be more worried and would be trying to get me to get help. I really just feel like they are joking around most of the time. Sometimes my dad seems a bit more serious about how little he thinks I eat, but he has never been concerned enough to try to do anything about it.
I do have a lot of anxiety and depression and a lot of it is focused on how I look, but again I just attributed that to my gender identity disorder. It doesn't really seem like it's a big issue in my life, I was just curious for your opinions on my situation.
Thanks