Causes of my anger

1. I had a depressing childhood

2. I was always an outcast, especially in school

3. I was cursed with physical problems and "abnormalities"

4. My mother, when alive, kept me under her thumb. Before it was because I was afraid of her (she had a temper), then she made me her nurse when she was bedridden (by guilt, and her being demanding)

5. I know I have no future, I could never make anything of myself and be successful in life.

6. Working at a fast-food restaurant for years, finally got to me. I had to quit, because I was always on edge.

Then after i quit, my mother kept me on edge, because she wanted something all of the time. When I would try to relax, I was waiting for her to call me again. (I loved my mother, but she added to my problems)

So, even after all that stuff is in the past, I cannot seem to let go of the tension, at least all of the time. I can get angry very easily sometimes, and will cuss worse than a sailor when it happens, and I almost go into a rage.

I have been trying to relax, and I can, but if something happens to interfere with my peace, I am quick to anger, almost like instinct. I try to not let it get to me, but it sometimes seems to catch me off guard.

I could be wrong, but those that are quick to anger (quick temper) probably are under stress too, and all it take is one little thing to set them off.

Hey, ON_THE_EDGE! I think talking about what is bothering you is important. You can let it out here. I'm sorry you've been through so much. My mother gets to me too.