I haven't been mad in a long time. I got my anger in control, until last night.
My spouse with held information, I being a survivor, felt completely manipulated.
Is there such a thing as blind rage. Because I remember very little after 5pm lastnight. I dont remember going to bed, nothing.
I was mad when I woke up this morning, but I am scared I might of did something I should not have. I fight fair. My spouse does not. He says I am crazy, insane, my best friend lives out of state, so he tells me I have no friends, I am a loser.
I seen my psych today, he asked me what could I have done, to make things better. I said get a grip, but that I couldn't.
I have never went out of control, from anger and this scares me.
My child was not home, when we had this fight, I dont even know when was the last time I felt like that.
I am scared, and I am still pissed. Can you really black out with anger?? I guess you can? I dont do drugs or drink alcohol, so that is not in the equation.
Help me please understand what happened and how I can never do that again. I am scared and alone.
Blind Rage, that is all I can think , I dont think I disossicated. I have done that in the past.
Please someone help me figure this out. Please I really need someone to help me.