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You guys are really great help for me, just reading your comments and advice gives me motivation, thank you!

You are very welcome Robert ! The type of addiction may change from person to person but the struggle is common enough . All of us have experienced it .

We all deserve a life free from chains . Keep in touch and let us know how things are going !

RobertM wrote:Last time i tried to go to a AA meeting, in front of the door I heard laughing and I froze, I turned around and never came back.

Oh my Gods I had to smile at this!

First time I went I expected (I'm NA) a bunch of miserable junkies covered in needle marks sitting there commiserating about dope prices and illnesses they had. I, on the other hand, only went because I couldn't stop drinking and using but I was not an addict at all. So I sat there on my moral high stool, uncomfortable, frustrated and frankly angry to be there and those "junkies" were laughing their asses off at their jokes, socialising, hugging – you wouldn't believe how funny jokes about near-death experiences can be after you've been clean for a while by the way. I was like "what are those disgusting people laughing about when they are ADDICTS". (In my defense, I think 90% of us think like that at the beginning!) I thought those meetings were supposed to be all solemn. But I rarely get as much good clean laughter as when I'm there.

So remember if you stick around YOU are going to be doing the laughing soon and it will not be at a newbie, it will be because you'll be happy. I know I sound like I'm trying to lure you into a sect but it's true!

Sorry, it has been a while, I had to cancel my AA meeting. Currently on the plane going to South Korea.

-- Fri Dec 02, 2016 1:25 pm --

Oliveira wrote:

RobertM wrote:Last time i tried to go to a AA meeting, in front of the door I heard laughing and I froze, I turned around and never came back.

Oh my Gods I had to smile at this!

First time I went I expected (I'm NA) a bunch of miserable junkies covered in needle marks sitting there commiserating about dope prices and illnesses they had. I, on the other hand, only went because I couldn't stop drinking and using but I was not an addict at all. So I sat there on my moral high stool, uncomfortable, frustrated and frankly angry to be there and those "junkies" were laughing their asses off at their jokes, socialising, hugging – you wouldn't believe how funny jokes about near-death experiences can be after you've been clean for a while by the way. I was like "what are those disgusting people laughing about when they are ADDICTS". (In my defense, I think 90% of us think like that at the beginning!) I thought those meetings were supposed to be all solemn. But I rarely get as much good clean laughter as when I'm there.

So remember if you stick around YOU are going to be doing the laughing soon and it will not be at a newbie, it will be because you'll be happy. I know I sound like I'm trying to lure you into a sect but it's true!

Yeah, I really have to get over my anxiety.

It will be there when you get back . Travel safe , stay warm and have a good time ( or at least some good food , if you are going there for work ) .

The food here is great, I love spicy dish.

They also have meetings in South Korea http://www.aainkorea.org/index.html

Update: I will be in Korea longer than I expected, I decided to have a vacation since I love it here. I haven't had a single drink since I got here. I'm just really having fun here.

That is brilliant news ! Getting away from "hometown" influences can help a lot with building a foundation for recovery / sobriety . Sometimes a change of scenery can jump-start a change of mind-set .

Have a great time , and keep in touch !

I know I've said this before but I really want to thank you guys for your sympathy, reassurance. You guys have given me hope and I really believe I can get through this.