Jason Raub wrote:...i'm only saying I don't think i'm greatly gifted other than understanding certain situations & ideas better than others - whats the deal?
Well, it could be regarded as modesty. Don't be so hard on yourself. Gifted isn't all the label it's cracked upto be. It just means you excel in certain areas, and are completely defficient in others. Labels are most certainly not the end all be all. Misunderstanding surrounds them all the time.
Jason Raub wrote:help this tirent out please.
I'm not sure what the word is that you used. I'm not one to help in that sense. But I'll do my best like others to act as a sounding board for solutions, or coping skills. I've been off and on lately though trying to restructure a lot of my own failing coping mechanisms. So unfortunately, I'm really not sure how good sounding off me lately is going to really be.
Jason Raub wrote:By the way Vandel I've been isolated from people all my life as well...
Some would tell you, that's very unhealthy. Personally, I'm all for doing what makes you comfortable so that you're able to do anything that's functional and progressive through the day. We're all unique and different in our needs and expectations. Isolation has been practiced for many different reasons from meditation, to prayer to extreme personal philosophy in hermitism. Just whatever your reason is, make sure there's a purpose behind it. There's nothing beneficial about merely drifting through life. Paint, write, code, read, bake, carve, knit, whatever... work towards something. It doesn't have to impress anyone. Do it for you. If you have to do it in isolation, do it in isolation. I do, nevertheless, understand the detrimental effects isolation can have on the human mind. So that's the next process, try to keep it healthy in that productivity. I get the paper problem aspects of that, and it's totally an easier said than done sort of process. I get that.
Jason Raub wrote:I started seeing how much better you are than my self so I fell in a hole of darn it..
I assure you I am no better than anyone. Even I have my idols. I'm just me. I fake it pretty well. I've put a tremendous amount of effort in developing this outward model of functionality. But it only works in words, and theory, believe me, for the most part, it's totally impractical, and nearly completely dysfunctional. Since realism in optimism is more a favourable model to me, the tower in the old days was meant to induce personal reflection. Put your mind to use, even if you can put it into words. If it wasn't for the severely dysfunctional we wouldn't have progress. Seriously, look through history at the most intelligent of our species and you'll notice one striking similiarity, they're all misfits and anxiety ruled a majority of their lives.
just me... trying to be... something more than I was yesterday. be well everyone.